As I turn my thoughts to you
Please do not turn Your sight away
I pray for all the passengers on MH370
Please save them.
Please keep them safe.
It sounds like a hopeless prayer
Knowing they have gone missing for over 20 hours
But I believe in a God of Miracles
It is not my strength that moves mountains
It is Yours
Guide those who search for them
So that they may find the missing.
Hear my prayer
The words I cannot utter
From the grief that silences my tongue
Please keep them all safe.
Traveling to the airport three days in a row for work has been pretty tiring. I think my lack of energy has been compounded by eating stale food or cup noodles for the past three days out in Tangerang.
Towards the end of the evening yesterday, I told someone I was supposed to meet that I didn’t have anything proper to eat all day, and that I haven’t eaten dinner. His response was, “I’m having room service. Message you later.”
I thought, wow, how incredibly thoughtful.
That led to a tinge of feeling like I’ve missed out… on what? The finer things in life? A meaningful relationship?
Then I figured, it doesn’t matter how we size up what we have relative to others. I used to feel that people who are able to shop and travel all year long without worrying about bills to pay can easily evince pangs of jealousy in others. Then I chanced upon Rich Kids of Instagram and I just started laughing at the ridiculousness of it all. I find it humorous because nothing on my facebook feed comes close to what they post up on the RKOI tumblr. Having seen a lot of poverty in the 2 years that I’ve been posted in Jakarta, my sort of humor has a darker side to it now.
After sensing my feelings roil for a bit at the unjust distribution of wealth in this world, I tend to go back to a sense of calm only meditation can bring. It lets me accept things as they are. Sure, many temptations abound and its easy to get caught up in the pursuit of money, world domination, the good life, etc. I tend to get caught up with worldly temptations but somehow God always brings me back to the center of my faith. That’s enough to keep me going even in the most challenging of circumstances.
So let us not compare what we have with others and illicit jealousy, or feel bad for ourselves if we are wanting. Trust in God, and do the best we can to do good in this world.